Beignet crossed over...

[woof]

Your loss is a sad story that plays out so often with our furbuddies- the years fly by and they have such a short time to be here with us. I have beaten myself up over missed symptoms several times in my life with dogs but when I look back there was just no way to see it- hindsight is perfect- foresight is worse than imperfect. We all feel your loss and know that empty feeling. You gave a wonderful dog 12 good years of happy life as a loved family member I am sure if she could have told you she would have said thanks..for everything. You gave her a home, she was a lucky dog.

 

[RikyR]

So very sorry for your loss. We feel your pain. Soon you sorrow will replaced by favorite memories of the good times you had with Beignet.

 

[Sandy in CT]

I am so sorry for your loss! Glad you found Beignet and were able to give her 12 years of love.

 

[woof]

I have been thinking about the shortness of a dogs life and how quickly they are gone from our lives. But with perspective, canines do not live life spans in terms of our years, theirs is much shorter. As sad as that may be, it is worth remembering that we had the privilege of having them for the whole of their lives, from puppy hood- teenager- young adult- old adult- till the end and for that short time gave them a loving home for the whole of their lives. We could ask for nothing more in our lives nor theirs and maybe that is some consolation.

 

[KarenCurtis]

I joined this forum about 12 years ago to learn about this amazing breed. I tried rescuing without any luck in my area. Finally started working with a group in Georgia instead of my home state, that all changed when I came across a scared looking puppy on Craigslist. Met up with the people rehoming her and she was shivering and looked abused, I couldn't let them keep her. We took her home and you guys helped me learn about how to take care of her, this was my first Sheltie. Over the beginning years, I met up with SheepOfBlue from here at a flyball event, but Beignet never showed any signs of wanting to play with toys or balls, so we didn't attend any other events. I drifted away from the forum not long after. She had a spinal stroke 2 years ago at 10 years old and I feel like we almost lost her then. She worked real hard in therapy and was walking again in a few months. This slow down made us miss some early indicators I feel like would have noticed the cancer sooner, I took her in for her annual and was told she had stage 4 cancer after her blood tests came back with low white blood cells. We went to start chemo, we sent off tests on the lymphoma to Washington State to target it and she started an intro base chemo treatment. They gave her an expectancy of about a year with treatment. Unfortunately a week and a half later, she wasn't able to walk and wouldn't eat and the oconologist said she had internal bleeding and an enlarged spleen. She was in severe pain and breathing was extremely labored. Vet advised us to not let her suffer any longer. We decided to let her go on Monday. It just felt so quick and I can't stop beating myself up that we missed things where we could have gotten her treatment that could have kept her around for awhile longer. I just feel lost without her, she was the glue holding me together through a lot of the years. We only got 12 short years with her.

Thank you for the help you guys gave me. It was a privilege to have had her in my life and I hope I gave her a good life. I don't know where to go from here. I keep looking for her, so I can lie down and give her some scratches because any time I was sad, she was there. I'm thinking of volunteering at a shelter or looking into fostering, but I feel like it is too soon as well. I miss having her so much and struggling with how to grieve her.