My dad passed last year with COVID. That was extremely hard, because he was in perfect health before that! He had all of these dreams and goals, and then his health went from perfect to life support inside of a few weeks. At the end, he was in complete denial; he truly thought he was going to get better. He was NOT ready to go!! Which made it so incredibly hard on all of us.
That's exactly how Katy is. She was just playing fetch with me last week! Running, barking, playing, having a great time! Tonight, she REALLY wanted to play, but started coughing almost immediately.
That's by far the hardest part. If she was lethargic and "checked out" then it wouldn't be so hard to brace myself. But when she's obviously wanting to run and play, but can't?
Even worse... if I'd known that was our last time we'd get to play... ya know?