Dawn
I'm so sorry! It is a most difficult decision to make, but I'm sure was the right one.
Chandler will always be with you, just like your other forever pups. He will always have a place in your heart.
Your letter was lovely. Having gone through my own losses 3 years ago, I found that putting my feelings on paper was very healing. Everytime I do it, I end up a great big sobbing mess for a little, but afterwards, I feel very cleansed. Sometimes I will look at the music collage I made for my daughter or read her memorials, have a good cry, and then feel "aligned" again. Its normal and its healthy to grieve and to find ways to express your feelings about your grief. I think your letter did just that.
Thank you for sharing with us!
Take care
Barb