Thank you everybody for all the kind words, I am sorry for your loss also. It's a very trying time for me and the kitty, MiMi, she has finally stopped asking me where her baby brother is. I went and picked up his ashes today, together with the little clay paw print, which I baked it the oven right after I got home. it was really hard to go and pick him up in a little jar. but at least he is home with us now. His name was SingSing, it means Little Star in Cantonese. He was very well loved, and everybody said he was a lucky boy to be my boy, but i said it was me who was lucky to have him to love me unconditionally like that. He had to keep me in sight even when we were home at my parents for dinner. He stopped walking on hardwood floors for years, I put rugs on my parent's place for him to go from the living room to the kitchen for dinner, so he sat at the kitchen door (thats where the rugs ended) and watched me if i had to go to the other rooms to do stuff. he was such a sweet baby.
I have been preparing the order form to have the hair I have saved for the past two years to be spun and then I can have that knitted and be able to hug him and have him sleep in the same bed with us again. I still remember the days when he was able to jump up to bed with me and MiMi, one on either side of me and I dare not move all night because I didn't want to wake either of them up. I love my furbabies, and I am so worried that his sister might leave me also, i have to scold her the other day because she slept in another spot on the bed under the covers and i couldnt see her! I am being so paranoid now!