RIP Miko
Again, I wanted to thank everyone for your support and advice. I wrote up something in the Angel folder for Miko.
Here's the link.
I have my good moments and my bad, which I'm sure is normal. I think it's time for me and Koji to go to bed....again. I crashed hard after it was done. But then again, I didn't sleep well, because Miko didn't sleep well.
I spoke with the animal communicator one last time in the morning. She said Miko really took a turn for the worse and that he's ready to go. I may have waited one day too long, since he did have a rough night, but I can live with that. I know he wasn't ready otherwise.
I did ask about me moving them to OR. Had to. I needed to know. She said Miko didn't mind, but was happy it was at the end of his life because he loved warm sunny SoCal. Koji said he likes the cooler weather because he's not so hot all the time. Guess I don't have to worry about him and the cold (y'know, the bootie thread, hehe).
After everything, I had written the animal communicator to just thank her for her help and to understand what they see/experience at the end, etc. She told me she keeps seeing a big smile on Miko's face and hoped that meant something to me. I just know I did the right thing, even if it hurts. And obviously he's pain free and happy again.
I think the hardest thing is walking around the house, knowing he's not here. Everything is in a specific spot because of Miko. Boxes in the hall, towels on the ground, puppy pads in the kitchen, even the kitchen mat was for him. I don't think I realized how much I adjusted things to accommodate him.